SHE LIVES!!!!!

I haven't forgotten you, dear little blog.

Real life just took over.

I think I'm ready to come back...

Rapid Fire Thoughts.

Dry ice is cool.
I find it odd how everyone loves horror movies this time of year.
I'm kinda hungry.
I really love the new netflix setup for the PS3.
I really need to finish my art projects.
I wish I had a model that looked like a young Tom Waits. I need models who aren't traditionally beautiful.
I can't see Nick Stahl without picturing him as That Yellow Bastard from Sin City.
Paint, sculpey and paint brushes are the only thing on my Xmas wish list.
I wonder if anyone will read this.

Come on up to the Tree House...

Sitting here watching every Tree House of Horror made to date, eyeballing my candy cauldron. It wouldn't hurt if I ate a little bit. Maybe a kit-kat. Just one.

I am a happy girl...

This is Halloween.

Too many thoughts!

They whirl around in my head like the fake snow in a snow globe. I can't focus on one simple thing. I've tried crocheting again. All I can make are single strands. I can't concentrate on it long enough. I got all my stuff out to create and now I got nothing.

ARGGGGHHHHH!!! Too much going on in my head.

I hate it when I'm like this.

Happy Pills and Head Shrinkers...

Tomorrow I start at mental health. I finally decided to get help for my crazies. I can't deal with the mood swings and the crushing depression anymore. I can't deal with the thoughts of self harm and suicide. I had my first anxiety attack so I know whatever is wrong in my head is getting worse.

I'm scared. I'm worried. It has to stop.

The time has come to do something.

Best. Birthday. Ever. Stormtroopers and mc chris. Sometimes life is good to me.

It isn't even real rain...at...all...

I try and try to just find that happiness in my life and for some reason it keeps getting yanked away from me.

But I keep trying. I wipe away my tears and keep going. I find solace in my friends and my art and I push on. I may never be happy again, but that's not going to stop me from looking.

Maybe one day.

Happy Birthday to Me.